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the loud noise of silence... i talk to myself11月13日 happy birthday juhiwishing a great birthday to one of the classic beauties of all time.. a personal favourite since 1988 when i first saw QSQT.. an association of 17 long years.. and coincidentally my first job was with saurashtra cements a company then owned by her husband jai mehta. well wishing long life graceful beauty and a happy life to a lady who taught me that you smile with your eyes and not with your lips. maybe we will meet one day. and ill ask you what do you think makes celebrities different from ordinary persons on the inside .. inside the human being i mean. so happy birthday to a lady love 10月17日 hmmmwell life is strange .. the very people we want to spend a lot of time are the very people that we get to spend very little time with. often it is our own undoing.
especially when you give priority to certain other issues over people in life.. i had this problem in the relationship i was involved earlier. my ex never understood this point. she always mistook my random conversations as time pass and little did she realise how i was trying to link to my thoughts of some issue at work . most people think that way. Hers is just a random example about someone close enough to supposedly (only supposedly actually!!!) know me inside out.
today again i went into some such discussion which would have seemed useless to many and all this time i kept my very dear friend waiting and ultimately she went off without being able to talk to me. she has been wanting to talk to me for long and i wanted to talk to her as well. and then this issue took me over tonight and i missed her.
sad but glaringly true. you can say its my mismanagement. yes in a way and to a certain extent it is. but then do i mix my priorities in life? i am not too sure on this i dont think we should. priorities are like principles esp at the level i am talking about them. so does she have to sufer like this despite being a very special freind for me. that is grossly unfair to her and untruthful of my freindship.
so i guess i go to sleep tonight confused on this. i hope there are souls that have found the answer and can help me. i doubt though.
well anyways. a lazy day not very productive and not very happy too.. good food and lots of guests but then not a satisfying one and one friend let down ..thats a bad balance sheet for a day.
i hope tomorrow is better... like all of us always do hope that tomorrow is better !!!!
yes i am praying for you P.
10月14日 musings random and currentlife is pleasantly surprising.
yesterday there was garba celebration at our campus and i was there only because of social obligations . lots of friends going there and asking me so many times to be there. and then there are others outside the campus who do not get a chance for such secure celebrations with relatively trust-able strangers all around. so i had invited some of my friends over and that obligated me as a host to be present there.
tanu (tushar's sister) came in with two of her friends and it was a nice discussion that we finally ended up having. sakhi, one of her friends wants to work for mentally challenged people in tamil nadu and has some real passion in her. the passion that i saw in her to start with her job was amazing. it was a long time since i saw someone so convinced and so strong on a philanthropic funda.
we started discussing with me telling her about the various possibilities and how NGOs and other agencies function in many different ways. we came back to many practical references of small contributions by individuals that most of us miss but take society as a collective a long way. this brought in the third girl - suhasini into the discussion as well. she also shared the deep dissatisfaction against the theoritical based educaiton system which had hardly any practical relevance. she went on the remark that "even after being the topper of my course and batch.. you feel so inequipped in the industry that you tend to think was it any worth to put in so much effort and top."
interestingly today i also got a reply mail from mr N H Atreya about whom i read on the site goodnewsindia.org which in itself is a unique website as well. it was nice to receive blessings in the email from a dedicated person like mr. atreya . just reading about his work made me revere him and it felt great to recive this email and connect with him .
i think the force is coming back to me . i hope it comes strong.
well till then milton said "they also serve who only stand and wait"
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got up in the morning late remembering to call up both vibhor and tanu (sinha) and it only ended up not calling both as first it was that it was not yet morning for vibhor and tanu would be in office. and then it plain just slipped from my mind.
i guess i need to start some yoga. . will need to get some knowledge about it first. mmm internet will soon have a job to do for me.
10月13日 happy birthday to my best friendsit is a coincidence that the best of my friends who are male and female share their birthdays..
vibhor garg my childhood chum and almost my elder brother was born on 13th of october and almost 20 years after i met him i met tanu sinha also born on the 13th of October.
this post is meant to wish btoh of you a very very bright year and life ahead.
may my best wishes and the Lord's blessings be with you always.
somehow at this unruly hours of six in the morning indian time i am still awake and missing you both.
all the best chums 10月11日 hmm controversies and trustlife is so amazing.. exactly at this time of the year i was losing faith of someone who had trusted me more than even the mother who had brought this person to the world. and amazing that someone else in a very different way won over my trust (of a very different nature).
life is strange meeting a lady who was on the verge of a divorce ..yet young and vivacious by all standards and still bubbling with life and deeply troubled inside. in circumstances no one can say normal .she had run away from home .she was stayign in a house where the lady in charge of the house was into prostitution, her brother was into illegal earning and knew what went in the house... a young kid in her teens who lived and survived amidst all this. yes i met her there and she had the faith that i would help her. distress can give you faith over the most unlikely people, it defineitly did give her faith on me.
not knowing what i was doing i kept myself away from getting involved and then yet the heart was responding to faith and i wanted to be a "freind" . cant help holding that relationship well above most others in life. unlike some other samartians in my life who said they were freinds and turned to be worse than foes. i fought the situation and decided i was a friend.
i offered what little help i could. it is times of our own distress that we realise how empowered we are about ourselves and times of distress of someone close to us that we realise how helpless and tiny we are in this universe. so my little help was helpful but not quite enough .
then came that one cheque which proved that she was truthful to me. when everyone had turned against her that one piece of paper with two slanting lines and some figure written on it was the biggest proof that she was who had truth on her side.
then life again took an amzing turn and she had to return . return to that same husband she did not like and to that same man she had run away from . only determined to change life and every which way it would be.
yesterday night i met her after half a year and she was her same bubbly chirpy self on the out and the deep determined self inside. adn yes she won my trust all over again and proved that she has truth on her side. adn believe me i do not have the answer to her questions or an end to her woes.. but i know the truth with her.
this truth has given immense power to her through determination and i hope it will give to me as well.
this is yet another of life's lesson learnt from the most unlikely spot and a showcase how friendship doesnt honour any categorization of human-made nature.
life is much abotu crises and losign and winning trust.
while one woman lost my trust in my crises another woman won it in hers and to be true both will never be part of my life.
isnt liofe amazing?
10月9日 the world is not fairthe heart was full of words
all surging to flow and express
emotions trapped deep inside stifling soul
didnt want to hurt her more
renewal and renaissance were a possibility
lost hope was willing to be gained
waiting for a chance of trust and faith
yet the nail was bolted in anger and wrath
the emotions trapped forever
those monhts of toll expressed never
she said what she had to say
and didnt give an ear to my way
if u clap well both hands do well
if u dont both hands falter alike
yet why then blame me for what
choice was made by two other hands
these howling drums and noisy music
remind the soul of the scourge within
took my spirit and best years of life
an empty hole you left me with forever
a humble submission i do make
in the abode of the lords and the men of virtue
though the utopian dream unreal be do not despair
But the world is not fair
5月28日 IIM - CAT walkingmilestones in life.... i had always been recognised as one with a different bent of the mind eversince i stepped into porofessional college. however i had not thought that it will fuctify into such an outcome. on may15th in the noon we , the IIMcatwalk team, Sandeep Krishnan, Sreekanth Sreedharan and myself, luanched our website called www.iimcatwalk.com we had an idea in mind and the will to experiment. we did not think of issues like sustainability and other long term issues. little had we realised that we were in for a surprise. that the site today crossed 150 resgistered users and 80 posts in a span of less than two weeks - is neat. well were also on google now in less than two weeks and exactly ten days. we have been covered by indian express in their ahmedabad edition yesterday and it was one of their first page features for the ahmedabad features section. amazing has been the spread of registered users - international ones from new york and even malbourne have patraonised the site. the spread of those who aspire to get into indian b-schools and even IIMs is interesting. i think the past week has been dedicated to catwalking alone. but it has been satisfying and successful . the satisfaction of living your convictions and trying to do what u believe in is very refreshing and self-inspiring to say the least. |
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